this shit has gone too far

things are like a whole ball of trash, rolling down the hill. i cant remember since when time started to feel slower/faster, wider/narrower, bigger/smaller. but my brain is like a twisted ball of threads, having its arms stretching to the far far beyond.

i need therapy, i need, i need help. i need someone something or somewhat to jump out of a hellhole and hold me.

this is too fucking much.

memories are like waterfall rushing down the lane.

my life is a pile of slushie mud.

i am an insufferable human being.

can i stop being human?

can i stop being me?