【我心中的偶像巨星】女神卡卡

終於有時間看完電影《一個巨星的誕生》（A Star Is Born），在這部電影最後唱的這首歌，是我近年來最愛的歌曲之一，這部電影初上映時就深深被這首歌給感動到，尤其是歌詞更是道盡對過往戀情的眷戀與不捨，非常觸動人心。

Lady Gaga

I'll Never Love Again

Wish I could
I could have said goodbye
I would have said what I wanted to
Maybe even cried for you

If I knew it would be the last time
I would have broke my heart in two
Tryin' to save a part of you

Don't want to feel another touch
Don't want to start another fire
Don't want to know another kiss
No other name falling off my lips
Don't want to give my heart away
To another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
No I'll never love again
I'll never love again
Ooouuu ooou oou

When we first met
I never thought that I would fall
I never thought that I'd find myself lyin' in your arms
Mmmm mmmm
And I wanna pretend that it's not true oh baby that you're gone
Cause my world keeps turnin' and turnin' and turnin' and I'm not movin' on

Don't want to feel another touch
Don't want to start another fire
Don't want to know another kiss
No other name falling off my lips
Don't want to give my heart away
To another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
No I'll never love

I don't wanna know this feeling unless it's you and me
I don't wanna waste a moment
Hoooo ouuu
And I don't wanna give somebody else the better part of me
I would rather wait for you
Hoooo ouuu

Don't want to feel another touch
Don't want to start another fire
Don't want to know another kiss
Baby unless they are your lips
Don't want to give my heart away to another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
Oooo I'll never love again
Love again
I'll never love again
I'll never love
Again

I won't I won't I swear I can't
I wish I could but I just won't
I'll never love again
I'll never love
Again
Who oo oo oo oo
Hmmm

關於電影，我覺得劇本並不特別，重點是男主角（身兼導演）的實力派演技及女神卡卡的巨星級音樂魅力，光是這兩個人選就足以讓這部戲成功，至於裡面演了什麼都難掩兩位演員的巨星光芒，換了其他演員未必能如此震撼人心。

還記得女神卡卡第一次訪問台灣是2011年，當時驚為天人的裝扮搶盡了所有人的目光，若沒有聽過她的音樂，肯定會覺得這人就只是穿著奇裝異服的怪胎，殊不知女神卡卡就是因為苦於對外表沒有自信，於是奇裝異服成為了她的保護色。

就如同電影中的卡卡表示別人對她的音樂表示肯定，但並不是外表，我相信這也呼應了現實生活中的卡卡，極度想要成名的卡卡，想要突破重圍就必須要讓自己有勇氣穿上恨天高及各式各樣前衛大膽的髮型及服飾，只為求大家多看她一眼、嘗試多聽一下她的音樂。

從小就愛聽各類型音樂的我，當搞怪的卡卡出現在樂壇時，就深深愛上了她，原來她擁有深厚的音樂底子，她的音樂簡直像植入腦中的晶片一樣讓人無法停止播放。

以下兩首就是經典神曲：

慢慢地，卡卡開始卸下那誇張的造型以真面目示人，原來卡卡很美呀！到底是誰說她其貌不揚呢？我很喜歡下面這首歌及全身粉紅的造型，歌名就叫做《Million Reasons》，講的是對即將逝去的戀情所做的最後懇求，希望能有一絲絲的希望可以挽回，哪怕只有一個理由都能令我留下，很心碎的一首歌，句句唱進心裡。

You're giving me a million reasons to let you go
You're giving me a million reasons to quit the show
You're givin' me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

If I had a highway, I would run for the hills
If you could find a dry way, I'd forever be still
But you're giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Head stuck in a cycle, I look off and I stare
It's like that I've stopped breathing, but completely aware
'Cause you're giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

And if you say something that you might even mean
It's hard to even fathom which parts I should believe
'Cause you're giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin' me a million reasons
About a million reasons

I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Hey, ehh, ehh, eyy
Baby I'm bleedin', bleedin'
Stay, ehh, ehhy
Can't you give me what I'm needin', needin'
Every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith
But baby, I just need one good one
Good one, good one, good one, good one, good one

When I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one, good one
Tell me that you'll be the good one, good one
Baby, I just need one good one to stay

而2014年，卡卡也自爆19歲時曾經遭受製作人天天性侵還懷孕的悲慘過往，我想每個創作者都渴望誠實對面自己的內心，唯有真實面對自己才能把作品中想要表達的一切傳遞給眾人，在電影《一個巨星的誕生》中男主角也是如此告訴女主角的。

時至今日，卡卡仍然飽受精神疾病所苦，一個巨星的誕生真的非常不容易，背後承受的巨大壓力及代價非常人可以想像。

女神卡卡名言：

你可以在一間有100個人的房間裡，裡面有99個人都不相信你，但你只需要一個相信你的人，就可以改變你的整個生命。

想要與眾不同很簡單，成為獨一無二卻很難。

你無法在愛裡找到自己到底想要甚麼，如果你不先好好愛自己。

為了你愛的事物努力奮鬥、永遠記得還可以更努力一點，然後你會很驚訝的發現，原來自己比起想像中來得強大許多。

我的志向一直都不是要『統治世界』，而是『改變世界』。

當全世界都把目光聚焦在你身上，如果你說了些不是打從心底想說的話，或者穿了不符合你靈魂或精神的衣服，這對你的身分都很不公平。因此每一天我都代表著最真實的我，而這麼做也是希望，我的粉絲期待我這麼做，為了他們、也為了我自己。

永遠無法忘記女神卡卡2011年來台時在演唱會上直言「台灣是一個國家」並掛上了中華民國國旗的那一幕，但願疫情過後還有機會等到女神卡卡第三度來台。

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